Ice Cream addiction and Stress Eating.....

Ugh!!

J.O.B. and Stress Eating!!

   I have figured out, in these last number of years, I am a stress eater. Yup. This is me. This is my ugly truth. I can easily drown my sorrows in a 1.5-ish quart of ice cream. If I have a 1.5-ish quart in the freezer, that is what I will eat for the next 18-20 hours. I will not eat another thing in between. I am not proud of this. What follows is a whole lot of feeling bad! Yes, there is the usual feeling bad, and that I "can't believe I ate the whole thing" kind of feeling. The worst feeling is that I am not taking good care of me. I suffer from the rise and fall of my blood sugar from eating ice cream. My body starts to ache all over. I beat myself up mentally for doing such a thing to me. How can I do this to myself? Easy. Stress. It drives me, and I let it own me. I allow it to take over. Then I beat myself up some more, mentally.

   So what did I do, today, when J.O.B. stress ran rampant at work? You know, when one of your office mates "throws you under the bus" to the boss. Yup. Ice cream. This time I just chose to do it a little differently. I went through a drive thru and ordered ice cream. Yup. Culvers. Two scoops. Flavor of the day. The same cost as a 1.5-ish quart of ice cream from the store. It was a small price to pay for my dignity. I was able to feed the stress monster. I did not have extra in the house to continue to eat and feel lousy again. I did take a nap after the ice cream, and yes, I didn't feel all that great. I am pleased to say, that I am up and about and doing things. I even made a lovely cup of lavender tea. So, I made progress. I do not have to beat myself up today.

   I also did something else a little differently. I took a very small walk around my yard and the neighboring woods. I took pictures with my cell phone. A couple of the ones from the woods were blurry. I was being attacked by 4-6 mosquitos with each picture that I snapped. OUCH!!

My wonky sunflower.

Hostas gone wild!

Beautiful ground cover.

I love this little piece of root.

Fungi!!

What?!! What??!! A pink puffball mushroom? Lol!

Interesting little collection.

Another fungi!!

I just wanted to get this out here. I wanted to get some of this out of my head. I wanted to see the choice that I made in a more positive light. It worked. I am much happier this evening. :)